I suck at following through.

I had these grand plans of doing this NaNoWriMo-like challenge. But literally the day after I published my last post, a ton of administrative work fell into my lap regarding my new job, moving, and wrapping up education. Why can’t I just make the time to write, dammit.

I still really want to do it, but I feel perpetually tired. Sometimes I feel so stressed I can’t do anything. But you know that would make me feel less stressed? Doing something about it.

I’m actually reading a dentistry textbook right now. That just seems more important than writing at the present moment, because in a short few months, I will be working in people’s mouths without supervision. Like whaaat.

But I’m still terrified that I’m going to hate my new job. And wouldn’t it be swell if I wrote something big and successful that I didn’t have to work if I didn’t want to? That’s the dream.

I should probably be in therapy, to be honest. It would limit my oversharing here.

Anyway, I do want to build this blog into something beautiful. Maybe that means chilling the fuck out and not setting up these crazy goals for myself. Maybe the goal should just be to post weekly about anything. Yes, this is a lame goal, but if I can meet it then that’s progress.